Tháng 10 ngày 26

We used to Live, and Lived to use. We used to cover up what we've become in our active addiction. The guilt, shame and remorse were too painful for us to face Clean.

The more we used, the more shame, guilt and remorse we created. After a while, our conscience stopped bothering us because it left, soon after we stop listening to it. All that was left is what we've become, and we weren't too proud of that either. We created masks to enable our using.

The problem is that our feelings got masked as well. The Fifth Step tells us that the masks have to go.

We've been taking Inventory of our Lives since coming to Narcotics Anonymous. Writing our Inventory unlocks parts of our subconscious that normally wouldn't have been revealed by just talking about it. The healing we get from working the Steps, helps us Accept our Assets. The Steps also reveals what we are lacking, so we can work on those liabilities.

It gives us the tools we need and with the Help of God and others in Narcotics Anonymous, we are able to become the people we were meant to be. We become Free to be ourselves. We no longer have to seek approval from others. We learn to Love ourselves.

Part of our Recovery is also about Self-Care. We no longer participate in risky behaviors.

We learn to take Care of ourselves. We learn Self-Forgiveness and Forgiveness of others with all their liabilities.

In This Moment: We will work toward Self-Acceptance. Through the Steps, we will Accept both Assets and liabilities in ourselves and others.