Grey Book Reflection
Having fun and being happy doesn't have to be searched for; it surrounds us. It is all there. So just do it. Be clean, have fun and be happy.
Gray Book, p. 156 (Chapter Ten, Lines 1-3)
When we arrive to Narcotics Anonymous, many of us cannot remember the last time we had a good laugh. We can't remember the last time we had any kind of "fun. " Some of us were so loaded that we were barely grasping any awareness or for some, consciousness. What we should remember is the pain.
Being Clean in early Recovery, the pain of not using felt so real, so tangible that it seemed as though we would never have a good time ever again. Some of us asked ourselves, "Is there life after drugs?" Some of us felt annoyed or uncomfortable with the smiles and laughter of others, as we attended meetings. Their Joys and Happiness caused us pain because it reminded us of what was missing in our lives. Our attraction grew as we were invited to Fellowship after the meetings.
Those late nights at the diner, or to a member's house to continue talking about Recovery, gave us Hope. We begin to experience what fun really is, without the use of drugs. Our World gets a little brighter.
With the attendance of meetings and the camaraderie of the Fellowship, we begin to experience Living Happy, Joyous and Free. Life is not just a glum lot.
Living the Steps and having a Growing relationship with our Higher Power, we begin to see new evidence of sanity all around us. More Will Be Revealed as we Keep Coming Back.
Our Gray Book says, "It is important for us to have fun in our recovery without the dying. "