Grey Book Reflection
Everyone has situations; we have tended to make them problems, like making a mountain out of a mole hill.
Gray Book, p. 138 (Chapter Eight, Lines 12-14)
They say that addicts can climb mountains, but trip over pebbles. In our using lives we were dominated by fear, partially because of the results of our actions. We lived exaggerated lives, and we couldn't live life without mentally escaping.
Our coping skills were never developed after we had started using, so everything became a big deal. In our active addiction we accomplished difficult tasks just to keep using. It was the simple day to day living that we had trouble with, so we used more drugs.
In our Recovery we Learned about powerlessness. We were told not to project and stay In The Moment. We Learned to Trust our Higher Power to not give us more than we could handle.
As Recovering addicts, it's the little things that we feel we can control that causes us fear and uncertainty. It's the big stuff in our Lives that we know we are powerless over that we don't worry about, so we Let Go. It's the small stuff, the pebbles in our Lives, where our Faith lacks. That's because we thought we were in control in the first place.
In Narcotics Anonymous we Surrender everything to God, not just certain parts of our Lives. We Live Just For Today.
The Basic Text says, "When we stop living in the here and now, our problems become magnified unreasonably." That's why we need each other. We learn to do the next right thing.
We leave the results to the God of Our Understanding.
We will Trust our Higher Power with the big stuff, as well as the small stuff in our Lives.