Tafakari ya Kitabu cha Kijivu
We turned to drugs because we are people who demand instant gratification and drugs gave us that instant satisfaction.
Gray Book, p. 39 (Step Three, Lines 8-10)
In Narcotics Anonymous we're not concerned how or when we became addicts. Some might say they were born addicted.
Some might say that their upbringing had an effect in causing their addiction. Some might even say it was a choice and a bad decision to use drugs, then they got hooked. In Narcotics Anonymous, we focus on the Solution and not the problem.
We Accept that we suffer from a progressive, incurable, fatal disease. Our focus is on the treatment of the disease, not how we got it or the most obvious symptom, the drugs. We suffered from a disease that we always wanted instant gratification of our basic desires. The initial euphoria the drugs first gave us stopped; we had to use.
We could no longer enjoy the simple things in life. The drugs stopped working and turned against us, and now the drugs were using us. Whatever felt good we did to the extreme, we were still chasing that high the drugs gave us in the beginning. We tried filling this void with people, places and things.
In Narcotics Anonymous we learned that a Spiritual problem had to be treated with a Spiritual Solution. The Steps are our Solution; it's our blueprint for Life. We learned that only a Higher Power can relieve our obsessions and compulsions.
We unlearn our old ways. Through Living the Spiritual Principles of the Steps and Traditions, we develop another Perspective of our Lives. Our Perceptions about ourselves, God, others and the World at large, change for the better.
We are no longer self-seeking. We focus on Helping others and get out of self.
Our Spiritual Gratification helps us Grow. We want more of this so, we keep coming back.
In This Moment: We will replace our instant gratification for Gratitude. We will take it easy and work the Program on a daily basis.