Tafakari ya Kitabu cha Kijivu
We are no longer fighting fear, anger, guilt, remorse, self-pity, anxiety, depression and a thousand other ills.
Gray Book, p. 39 (Step Three, Lines 25-27)
When we first arrived to Narcotics Anonymous, we were beaten into submission. This made us admit our powerlessness and our Surrender to the disease of addiction. We had to stop fighting the disease, the fight was fixed, and we would lose.
We then Surrendered to the Program of Narcotics Anonymous. This was evident as we started to Practice its Spiritual Principles.
The Principle of Surrender has to become a daily Practice. We attend Meetings, after some time we Sponsor members and get Sponsored. The Steps and Traditions of Narcotics Anonymous changes our personality as we learn to Live them.
We learn about Acceptance, Courage and Wisdom in our decisions. We are no longer fighting anything or anyone.
Our Basic Text tells us, "We no longer need to make fools of ourselves by standing up for nonexistent virtues. " We are no longer seeking approval from others. We are finally Free to be our True selves. Our Relationship with our Higher Power improves through Constant Conscious Contact.
We no longer have to dwell in the past, which can lead to being depressed. We no longer project into the future, which can lead to anxiety.
We learn to stay in the Moment; we no longer borrow from tomorrow. We start to let go of trying to control everything and everyone. We tap into this Higher Power for our Daily Strength to stay Clean and Carry this Life saving Message of Narcotics Anonymous to the addict that still suffers. As a result, we Grow and stay Serene, and get to keep what we have.
In This Moment: We will not get into the ring with the disease because the fight is fixed, and we will lose our Serenity and eventually our Recovery.