March 4

For many of us, drugs were the solution; we used drugs to mask our feelings. The drugs helped us survive our emotions. As we progressed in our addiction, we no longer were using drugs; the drugs were using us.

The more we used, the more we had to use, it was no longer a choice, the drugs were in control. We lost our Relationship with Reality, our Spirits went to sleep with each use. We had to use at all costs, despite the evidence of the wreckage we were creating.

We failed to see the harm we were causing to others, more than that, we failed to see the harm that we were causing to ourselves. Our Literature says, "We did many people great harm but most of all we harmed ourselves. Our character defects that were needed to keep using were actually causing harm to us at a deep level. We were no longer the people we were created to be.

As the disease progressed, it gained more and more territory. Who we really were had began to disappear.

Arriving at the doorstep of Narcotics Anonymous, we met a special group of people who, like us, visited the same horrors of addiction. Today they were Free and Shared with us a Solution that was Spiritual in nature. Through their Freedom we gained Hope.

We felt if they can do it, we could do it. First, there needs to be a demolition process, out with the old, in with the New.

We no longer needed our old survival skills. We found they were useless in this New Way Of Life. Working with a Sponsor and a Power Greater Than Ourselves, we use the Steps to make this transformation a reality.

Each and every Step resulted in the Awakening of our Spirits. We do Recover from a hopeless state. Together we build our new personalities with the Spiritual Principles of N.A.