Grey Book Reflection
Do we really want to be rid of our resentments, our angers, our fears?
Gray Book, p. 46 (Step Six, Lines 20-21)
Our Basic Text tells us that there's a certain distorted security in familiar pain. We sometimes hold on to these defects because at one time that's all we knew. These defects even saved our lives or enabled our using at best.
Letting go can be painful, it's almost like giving up an old friend. Steps Four, Five, Six, and Seven helps us identify and replace these old survival skills. These survival tools are no longer needed in this New Way Of Life.
In Narcotics Anonymous we are given a Spiritual Toolbox. We keep these Tools effective by using them in our everyday Life. The Spiritual Principles contained in the Steps and Traditions make us better people.
They also give other addicts Hope, in that they too can find a New Way To Live. We find that when we Trust defects, we end up in pain and hurting others. When we Trust Spiritual Principles our lives and the lives of those around us benefit.
We can carry an effective Message, because we're Living it. With the Help of our Higher Power, our Sponsors and the Fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous, we live clean and productive lives. We are no longer fighting anger or depression.
We Surrender to the Process and our Lives are Anew. We can only keep this Precious Gift, if we give it away.
We will Let go and Let God do what we can't do for ourselves.