Tháng 10 ngày 6

In active addiction, we became excellent projectors; we never Lived in the Moment. We regretted our past, and we borrowed from tomorrow. We projected how situations and events were going to take place, with the worst scenarios and results.

We became good script writers in a horror flick. The whole plot put us in the worst case possible and was not based in Reality.

Most of the time, our predictions were wrong. Now that we're in Narcotics Anonymous, our projections can still be based on fear. Fear is never in the present; it's us Living in the future, causing our own anxiety and obsessions.

We find if we Live in the Moment our fears are lessened. As a result, our Spirituality Flourishes. We are then able to make the list of all those people, places and things we have harmed.

We are then capable and possibly become Willing to Amend our wrongs. Our Literature says, "We try and work this Step as if there were no Ninth Step. " It goes on to say that it can be a stumbling block in making a list and become Willing. We have to remember that the purpose of this Step is for us to achieve Freedom from guilt, from our past.

We are preparing to Practice the Spiritual Principle of Forgiveness. We place ourselves on the list for the harm we caused others.

As we Forgive ourselves, we are able to Forgive others. Some will put God on the list because in our active addiction, we violated most of the Spiritual Principles that He Created.

In This Moment: We will not project about making Amends. We will stay in the Moment with the presence of God.