16 Septemba

Peace and Serenity were very foreign feelings for many of us, before coming to Narcotics Anonymous. We lived a life of confusion and contradiction. Many of us were dominated by worrying and uncertainty fueled by our fear of running out of drugs.

In the pursuit of our addiction, we had lost the ability to be alive and enjoy the lives other people had. However, in Narcotics Anonymous we have found a way for addicts to find Freedom from the horrors of addiction. First, we stop using.

Once we are Completely and Totally Abstinent we begin to feel the pain of withdrawal. The pain of our physical, mental and Spiritual withdrawals forces us to seek a Power Greater Than Ourselves that can relieve our obsession to use. We come to learn to Trust and Serve this Higher Power.

We start see the Spiritual Principle of Reciprocity come alive. When we give Freely of ourselves in helping others, the Higher Power gives us Gifts of Happiness, Peace, Self-esteem and sometimes even Serenity. We must remember God Grants Serenity, not us.

We are only capable of Living God's Will to the best of our ability, and God will give us the Spiritual Gifts. We see that what we're longing for all our Lives was for an Awaking of the Spirit. We just hadn't known until we were in the Program of Narcotics Anonymous!

In This Moment: We will continue doing the Higher Power's foot work and leave the results up to Him.