Grey Book Reflection
When we admitted that our lives had become unmanageable, we didn't have to argue our point of view.
Gray Book, p. 79 (Chapter Five, Lines 8-10)
One of the first things we experience in Narcotics Anonymous, when we stop using drugs, is an inertia like that of a speeding car that suddenly stops, everything that's in the back seat flies to the front seat. We begin to see and experience the wreckage of our past. Although the tornado is over, the wreckage we caused is left behind. The results of our using finally start to catch up to us.
The powerlessness and the unmanageability of our Lives are evident and become hard to deny. However, there is a Solution.
Our First Step says repeatedly that, when we Admit our powerlessness and unmanageability of our Lives, we open the door to Recovery. The opposite is also True, not Admitting our powerlessness and unmanageability, closes the door to Recovery. This can happen no matter how long we've been Clean and in Recovery. We no longer make excuses or blame the disease.
We take Responsibility by taking Action to make sure we don't repeat our history of using. The Steps and Traditions of Narcotics Anonymous are designed to change our Future. Today we will use the Principles of Narcotics Anonymous to change our past by changing our present.
Our present becomes the past in the Future. We Learn to Accept our disease as well as our Recovery.
We will no longer have excuses for our disease, or in being an addict.
We will Admit that our Lives are unmanageable, by our own accord. We will seek Help from God and the Program of Narcotics Anonymous.