Grey Book Reflection
If we do not maintain our spiritual condition daily, some of us find the resulting pain and confusion lead to a return to drugs and our old way of life.
Gray Book, p. 144 (Chapter Nine, Lines 27-29)
We use drugs at the end of a relapse. Our Spiritual decay starts to happen first, then our defects take over, and we could pick up soon afterwards, then we're just using. We discover that if we're not working on our Recovery, we're working on a relapse.
The Recovery Process takes work; the relapse process is the lack of work. Since Recovery is an uphill Journey, standing still, we begin to backslide.
Our Daily Reprieve is contingent on our Spiritual Condition that day. Our Recovery consists of our Daily Surrender to the Principles of Narcotics Anonymous. The Principles consist of Honesty, aligning our actions to the Truth.
Regular Meeting attendance is one way to align our actions to the Truth. Living The Program throughout our day in all of our actions, is another way of practicing Honesty. Calling our Sponsors and being accountable to them and others is also practicing Honesty.
Serving others through Service and Sponsorship reinforces our Recovery and helps keep us Honest. Narcotics Anonymous is a Program of Action, practicing Spiritual Principles daily, changes our thinking. Since a sick mind can't cure itself, we have to Live our way into Good thinking. We transform daily, we have to continue progressing in our Recovery, so that we don't revert to our old behaviors.
When we stop Living The Program, the Recovery process ceases, and the relapse process has its beginning. We must continue to have a Conscious Contact with our Higher Power and continue asking for Power to walk this walk. With God, our Sponsors and the Fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous, we continue on this Spiritual Path.
We will continue moving forward on this Spiritual Journey. With an addict on our left and an addict on our right.