March 29

When we first arrive into Narcotics Anonymous our yeses should have been noes and our noes should have been yeses. Our will for us is usually the exact opposite of God's Will for us. We fear if we turn our Will's and Lives Over to the Care of a God Of Our Understanding, we will miss out on something.

Some of us don't want to give up some behaviors and defects; like smoking, lusting, stealing and misusing our sex powers. As we Live the Program we start to Change, we start to take Care of ourselves. We want to be Guided by Spiritual Principles; we want to be Healthy.

We want to have a job, pay bills, be Responsible, and we don't want to spend our Lives by ourselves without a mate. Some of us want to start a family. As we Grow in this Program, we soon realize that the very things we want for ourselves, God also wants for us.

Finally, we see that God's Will for us, becomes our will for ourselves. This Growth happens when we work for it, there's pain and Sacrifice in our Surrender. The Gift in Living by Spiritual Principles is so rewarding it cannot be measured, we get Glimpses of a Life Free of some of these defects.

This gives us Hope, and we learn to Let Go and Let God. We become a Vision of Hope to others.