January 13

At first, we used drugs and then at the end, drugs used us. We told ourselves we could stop if we wanted to, but that desire never came. Toward the end of our drug use, we just wanted to stop hurting.

We told ourselves if it wasn't for the consequences we would still use. We failed to see that we weren't addicts because we used drugs, we used drugs because we're addicts. We were actually powerless over our addiction; it just manifested in our drug use.

Inside we were just as unmanageable as on the outside. In fact, not until we Surrendered, was when we felt that inner unmanageability. After the arrival into Narcotics Anonymous, we saw that a disconnection from a Loving Higher Power was enough of a consequence.

Our Admission in the First Step had to be backed up with Action; Honesty is the tool behind the First Step. Honesty means that we align our actions with the Truth. The actions in the Steps are what starts the Recovery Process.

The First Step says, when we Admit our powerlessness and unmanageability, we open the door to Recovery, the opposite is also true. We can also close that door with our inaction. So, we must continue with a Living Program.

When we gain Gratitude, it'll show as we Share and Care the N.A. Way.