Grey Book Reflection
in the end, each of us had to admit that our self-sufficiency was a lie. nor could we manage our own lives.
Gray Book, p. 91 (Tradition One, Lines 18-21)
Before Surrendering to Narcotics Anonymous, most of us suffered in isolation. The disease robbed our minds, bodies and souls of any Serenity and Hope. In the darkest of our times, we knew that any Light was a God-manifestation, but we allowed it to go dim through our drug use.
Our Spirits were smothered and went to sleep. Arriving at the Fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous, we were greeted with a hug and asked to Keep Coming Back.
Our Spirits began to be shaken Awake. Attaining and maintaining Complete and Total Abstinence, attending Meetings, working with a Sponsor. Practicing simple Spiritual Principles, with the Help from a Higher Power, our Spirits started to Awake even more. When we Admit our powerlessness and inability to manage our own Lives, we open the door for a Power Greater than ourselves to Help us with our Recovery.
As we continue to Grow Spiritually we in turn start to Greet and Hug Newcomers and Share this Precious, and Healing Light with them. As we help Awaken their Spirits, our Spirits Awaken even more. We never need to tremble in the cold horrors of active addiction again.
To gain the warmth in our Lives, all we needed to do was stoke the amber that N.A. planted. Through the Narcotics Anonymous Program, we learn how to Live by the Light and the Healing Heat from that Light.
We followed with Action after Admitting our isolation was part of our disease. We begin by becoming part of something Whole; Narcotics Anonymous.