Grey Book Reflection
It would be tragic mistake to have it all written down and then just shove it into a drawer.
Gray Book, p. 44 (Step Five, Lines 12-13)
The Fourth Step in Narcotics Anonymous asks us to put pen on paper and write our Assets and liabilities. This fearless Self-Appraisal reveals what makes us tick. Through our writing we unlock feelings that were buried alive in our active addiction.
The Fourth Step unlocks parts of us that we weren't conscious of. It also shows the patterns of living that were developed and needed for our drug use. Our liabilities were no longer needed in our New Way Of Life; they served their purpose in active addiction, but are no longer needed.
Our inventory also revealed our Good Qualities, Assets that are tools we could use for this Way Of Life. Our resentments and anger toward people, places and things no longer hold us captive. The first Three Steps we get right with God, in the Fourth Step we start to get right with self. We are Free to Grow and reach another level of Surrender.
We started experiencing Self-Acceptance, and we were beginning to like ourselves. We began the removal and replacement process, out with the old in with the new.
We invited the God Of Our Understanding to Guide us in our Process and we Prayed for Honesty. This act of Faith will be incomplete unless we share it with God, ourselves, and another human being. This brings us to the Fifth Step.
We invite a Loving God into our Process, we ask for Strength and Courage to be able to look at ourselves and with God's help and our Actions we change.