Grey Book Reflection
Our old ways were so self-destructive and egocentric, we hurt ourselves and those we loved. Learning a new way of living is a blessing from our Higher Power
Gray Book, p. 140-141 (Chapter Eight, Lines 32-1)
As addicts our egos have controlled our Lives in many ways. One of those ways is by not allowing others to Help us, when we needed Help.
Often we also rebelled against those who tried to interfere with our will; especially if they were trying to lend us a hand. The idea that we do not need Help has to be shattered.
Self-sufficiency is part of the disease of addiction, and it's a lie. Acceptance of the idea that we don't have all the answers is part of learning how to Live Our New Way of Life in Narcotics Anonymous. The initial Surrender we experience in Step One starts the Process of deflating our egos.
We begin to Practice the Spiritual Principle of God-consiousness and start to look for God's role in our Lives. Many of us start to see that we experience the most Freedom from our self-destruction when we are being of Service to our Higher Power. It's been said that ego's acronym is "Easing God Out." " Since ego is part of the disease of addiction, it's in opposition to Living a Spiritual Solution; it would be just the opposite to "Easing God In!"
We will be Grateful to our Higher Power for that's the reason we have this New Way Of Life.