Grey Book Reflection
Working the Steps got us out of our old attitudes. When we admitted that our lives had become unmanageable, we didn't have to argue our point of view.
Gray Book, p. 79 (Chapter Five, Lines 7-10)
Pride always comes before the fall; toward the end of our using, we didn't want to admit defeat. We viewed our using as a moral deficiency; we had no concept of a disease aspect. Our egos kept us from admitting defeat or Surrendering.
We had all the answers, we thought. We blamed people, places, and things for our situation.
We couldn't agree with anything anyone else had to say about our lives. We always had excuses and could rationalize our actions. Not until we put away our blame throwers and admit complete defeat is when we open the door to Recovery.
Step One directs us to Surrender to the disease first, then Surrender to the Program of Narcotics Anonymous. We Accept that we suffer from a disease that was of a Spiritual nature and that its symptom was the drug use. We were told that we're not Responsible for the disease, but we are Accountable, and we are Responsible for our Recovery. With each Step taken we start the daily transformation that's needed for a personality change, and a Spiritual Awakening.
We no longer have to stand for non-existing virtues, and we start to stand for something. We apply the Spiritual Principles contained in the Steps. The Principle of Openmindedness keeps us Growing and the disease at bey.
Our perspectives change, and our attitudes change. We start to attract healthier relationships in our Lives. We finally know the meaning of Spirituality, which is the right Relationship with Reality.
Through Living the Spiritual Principles of the Steps and Traditions we can Accept Realty for what it really is.