Suy Ngẫm Sách Xám
This Step must cut into our character defects and expose our motives and our actions for what they really were.
Gray Book, p. 45 (Step Five, Lines 11-13)
Many of us arrive to Narcotics Anonymous with a hundred stories, real or imagined from the past and the present; good, bad or indifferent. When we Share our stories we've held on to for so long in the Fifth Step with God, ourselves and another human being, we get to the exact nature of our wrongs. The exact nature of our wrongs are our defects of character.
Once we share these stories, we are now able to see that they were just a handful of defects manifesting themselves in all areas of our Lives. Our Literature reminds us, "These defects grow in the dark, and die in the light of exposure." In exposing the exact nature of our wrongs, our higher power gives us the Spiritual Direction and Guidance we need. The disease of addiction is the opposite of Spirituality and a contradiction to Living, so we must practice the Spiritual Principles of Narcotics Anonymous to replace them.
In doing this, we starve the disease of addiction and feed our Recovery. These defects of character are repetitious, so we must continue our Recovery efforts. This allows us to Live Clean and Recover Just For Today without the limitations of our past ways.
We have Surrendered our past and do not have to cling to it. We are Free.
In This moment: We cannot make these changes alone. We need our Higher Power's Help and the Help of the Narcotics Anonymous Fellowship.