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Afraid, unable to let go of old ideas, still working to "run the show" he found no answer to what he saw as his problem. Blinded by what he saw as important, unwilling to let go of the old familiar ways, he used again.
Gray Book. p. 129 (Chapter Seven, Lines 33-36)
In N.A. it is Suggested that we keep our Priorities in Order. First of all we don't use drugs, no matter what.
In this freedom, we found that we had a Choice; we didn't have to use again. We had to find a new way to respond to life and our daily situations. Because we are powerless over our addiction and our inability to manage our own lives, We can use the N.A. Program, We Do Recover. We have seen addicts trying to solve Life on their own; our diseased thinking will trick us into trying our own way.
We can lose ourselves in thinking we can manage our own lives. Our way of doing things will eventually end us up in an Emotional, Spiritual, Mental, and finally a Physical relapse, we can feel sicker than ever before. If We do not let go of old reservations, we are doomed to make the same mistakes over and over again. Only a complete Surrender of our old Attitudes will allow us to receive the Benefits the N.A.
Program has to Offer us. A Total Surrender of these reservations will allow us the Ability to work the Steps and find Freedom from active addiction; and see ourselves for who we Truly are. If we are lucky enough to survive a relapse, we Surrender again, this time totally. The humiliation we experienced in our relapse made the opening in our minds needed to Graft a new idea into it. We were beaten into submission once again, only this time the seed had been planted.
Once we know, we can't unknow. We found that the only Suggestions we paid for, was the ones we didn't take. We were Welcomed back by other Members free of judgement.
In Narcotics Anonymous we are Loved until we learn to Love ourselves. Getting an N.A. Sponsor, we start to read the Basic Text and with our Sponsor's Guidance, we work the Steps.
Day after Day with the Help of Meeting attendance and the Fellowship we begin to Recover. We finally found a New Way To Live.
In This Moment: We have to keep our Priorities in Order, or God will do it for us. We use our Experiences to Help others on their Journey of Recovery in Narcotics Anonymous.