17 Temmuz

Our Literature tells us that we became powerless over our use of drugs. How many times in our active addiction did we try to control our using? We told ourselves we wouldn't use today, or only on certain days, only to use again against our Will. After a while we saw that we didn't use drugs; drugs actually used us.

Many times we found ourselves using drugs at the most inconvenient times. We used before or during work.

We used before special events that we should have been mentally and emotionally present for. Some of used right before a court date, not knowing or caring if we would be tested that day. Our denial prevented us from acknowledging our powerlessness.

The spiritual part of the disease kept us from seeing the destruction addiction was causing around us. When we did see the harms we caused because of our addiction; we were unable to stop. After arriving to Narcotics Anonymous and achieving Complete and Total Abstinence, we started to experience the inertia from the wreckage that resulted from our using. Working and Living the First Step Help to shatter our illusion that we were in control.

Powerless meant that we used drugs against our Will, and regardless of the consequences. The Second Step in N.A. treats the mental part of the disease. A Power Greater Than Ourselves is what's used to relieve our obsession to use.

Turning our Will and Life over to the Care of this Higher Power in the Third Step enforces that our denial has been broken.

In This Moment: We will Surrender to the Principles of Narcotics Anonymous as an act of Faith that this Program works.