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Some of us during active addiction acted on self-will. Acting on our self-will resulted in our Lives becoming unmanageable.

This is one of the reasons that in desperation, we arrived to Narcotics Anonymous. Another reason was that we were powerless over our addiction.

In Narcotics Anonymous, the Decision in the Third Step to turn our Will and Lives to the Care of God sounded like a big order. Some of us weren't ready for this alignment.

To stop using drugs was one thing, but some of us weren't ready to quit smoking cigarettes. Some of us didn't want to stop sleeping around with different sex partners.

Some of us weren't ready to stop stealing and lying. The drug lifestyle seemed to follow us, even after we got Clean. Participating in killing ourselves softly wasn't conducive to our New Way of Life. Our Basic Text states, "Recovery is an active change of our ideas and attitudes." Only a complete change in our personalities would enable our Recovery to continue to Grow.

Our Spirits experienced periods of Serenity only to be followed by periods of remorse whenever we fell short, or every time we took our Will back. The longer we stayed in Narcotics Anonymous and Lived the Steps, our Conscious Contact with our Higher Power increased. We found that as long as we Prayed for God's will, we actually were getting what we wanted for ourselves all along. God's Will for us is to continue to Recover, to be of good health, to not be alone, and to be Self-supporting.

Through applying the Spiritual Principles, God's Will for us becomes our Will for ourselves. We begin to experience longer periods of Joy and Serenity, as long as we continue this Conscious Contact.

In This Moment: We know that as long as we continue doing God's will, our Lives will be Fulfilled.