Tafakari ya Kitabu cha Kijivu
At times, our motives will be obscured by clouded thinking. We can pray for humility and use it as a light to examine our real motives.
Gray Book, p. 57 (Step Ten, Lines 2-4)
Our Basic Text tells us, "We have been experts at self-deception and rationalization " However, when we Pray to our Higher Power and we Share our thoughts and actions with our Sponsors; we can better see our real motives. We do this regularly, through our Personal Inventory on a daily basis. Our Literature reminds us that defects can drive us into a corner that we can't come out of Clean. Fear, guilt and resentment often causes our motives to have motives.
These defects of character can cloud our thinking and decisions. The disease of addiction often manifests its self-obsession and fantasy.
What we really need is Spiritual Principles, which is the opposite of that. Spirituality is often described in Narcotics Anonymous, as having the Right Relationship with Reality. Like any other meaningful Relationship it requires our daily Effort and Commitment.
We Maintain this Right Relationship with Reality through Honest Sharing and Prayer. These actions allow us to see our True motives, however, this is only part of our Spiritual Solution. The Healing is in the Corrective part of our self-examination.
We correct this by asking our Higher Power for the Strength, Courage, Humility and Willingness to be motivated by His Will and not our own selfcenteredness.
In This Moment: We will Practice Humility by asking our Higher Power to Help us see through our own self-deception.