Grey Book Reflection
In N.A. we have feelings we never dreamed of having. We are able to entertain ourselves today. We do things beyond our wildest imagining.
Gray Book, p. 155 (Chapter Ten, Lines 14-16)
As addicts, we used drugs to get out of ourselves. We didn't feel comfortable in our own skins, in the process we stood away from others as well. At the end of our bottoms, the isolation and desperation seemed too much for any human being to handle.
For most of us, this is what it took to want to seek a Solution. We still weren't sure if N.A. was for us, we just wanted to stop hurting. Arriving at Narcotics Anonymous, we were given Suggestions.
As we learned to follow these subtle commands, our perspectives started to change. We found out that we didn't have to use anymore, and that was a great revelation. We joined others in their Journeys, and they shared their Recovery with us.
They showed us the way that was shown to them, when they first came around. One addict helping another proved to be what was missing, in our Lives all along. As others Helped us, it Helped them as well.
As we Helped others, our own Recovery was Enforced. As we got introduced to the God Of Our Understanding and worked the Steps with a Sponsor, we also started to feel comfortable in our own skins. We experienced Compassion and Empathy toward others. We learned by working with others; we got out of ourselves.
The more we gave of ourselves, the more of ourselves we received. Working the Steps and Practicing Spiritual Principles in our lives, we began to change. We started to become the person we always wanted to be.
We grew to Love Freedom, and our Lives began to be something we wanted to experience. We experienced Love of self and others.
Some of our dreams became possibilities.
We can build Healthy Relationships, with God, Ourselves, Others and with the World at Large. Living Happy, Joyous and Free is now a Reality.