Grey Book Reflection
We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
Gray Book, p. 52 (Step Nine, Header)
All the Steps of Narcotics Anonymous provides Freedom. Step Nine is no exception.
Step Nine helps us clear the wreckage of our past, and Frees us to Live Today. Step Eight prepared us for this Process by making a list of people, places and things we have harmed, or negatively affected. We became Willing to actually look for these people, places and things, to make Amends to. We go over the List with our Sponsor, and they will show us Wherever possible on the List, that we can make Amends.
Our Sponsor will also show us Where on the List, that Making Amends would cause more harm to those and others. With the Help of our Sponsors and the God Of Our Understanding, we take this crucial Step. Some Fruits of this Step are, Freedom, Integrity, Courage, Humility, Dignity, Peace of Mind, and Spiritual Awakening to say the least. Some Principles that make this Process possible are, Willingness, Responsibility, Humility, Anonymity, Forgiveness, Openmindedness, Justice, Trust, Faith, Love, Patience and Tolerance.
We ask our Higher Power for the Strength to apply these Principles. We ask our Higher Power, to have no expectation and ask for the Acceptance of the results. Our Amends is unconditional, for the exception to wanting to change. We make Amends for others, but we also do it for ourselves.
We walk through the fear and our Higher Power will supply the Courage. There's also indirect Amends we might have to make, in cases where we can't contact some people, places or things we have harmed.
Remember, we don't do any of these Steps by ourselves. We will be in Conscious Contact with the God Of Our Understanding, our Sponsors, and the Fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous.
For this we are Forever Grateful.
Our Spirits will continue Growing in this Process.