Grey Book Reflection
JUST FOR TODAY I will have faith in someone in N.A. who believes in me and wants to help me in my recovery.
Gray Book, p. 143 (Chapter Nine, 2nd Sentence)
In active addiction many of us had lost Faith in anything or anyone. The disease of addiction put our Spirits to sleep. We didn't have a Relationship with Reality.
Our Personal Relationships slowly deteriorated as we progressively disappeared into our disease. We were no longer present to participate in our Lives or in the Lives of others. We had lost one of the main reasons of being Human, our partnership with another person. The disease isolated us, until in desperation we found Narcotics Anonymous.
Here, we met other addicts like us that were no longer alone. They had each other, but most importantly they had themselves. They told us that they too had suffered from the horrors of addiction.
They appeared to be Happy, Joyous and Free. They showed us unconditional Love and Acceptance.
We finally felt at home being so Welcome. They Believed in us and wanted to help us achieve what they achieved, Freedom from active addiction. The Members of N.A. showed us by applying the Spiritual Principles of Narcotics Anonymous; we too can Recover. We found that it was a twenty-four hour Program.
Its effectiveness was based on Total and Complete Abstinence from all mind and mood altering drugs. It also was contingent on an ongoing application of these Spiritual Principles on a daily basis. The best thing about it was we didn't have to and couldn't do it by ourselves.
NA also means, Never Alone.
JUST FOR TODAY we will be unafraid, our thoughts will be on our new associations, people who are not using and who have found a New Way of Life.