Grey Book Reflection
We can only make our amends to the best of our ability and they can either accept it or deny it.
Gray Book, p. 53 (Step Nine, Lines 16-18)
True Freedom hinges on this important Step. The Ninth Step of Narcotics Anonymous is part of that Promise of Freedom our Message talks about. In the first three Steps, we achieve Freedom from drugs and active addiction.
The next three Steps, we start to achieve Freedom from bondage of self. Steps Seven, Eight and Nine is the beginning of Freedom from people, places and things that imprisoned us. Addiction had our Minds, Bodies and Spirits trapped by instant gratification. The Ninth Step frees us from the wreckage of our past.
Since timing is an essential part of this Step, We need Guidance from The God of Our Understanding and our Sponsors. We Amend the harms we caused by changing our ways. We also make Restitution to the best of our abilities.
We approach this Step without expectations of the results. We make Amends because we have to.
Selfcentered fear may try to creep in again. We rely on our Higher Power for Strength and Courage and proceed.
We clean our side of the street. We do not clear our conscience at the expense of others. By the same token, we're not responsible for the responses or results of those Amends.
We make Amends to the best of our abilities; our victims can either accept it or reject it. Our Recovery flourishes as we let go of our self-obsessions and self-centered fears. This life-time process enables us to find A New Way To Live.
With the Principles of Narcotics Anonymous, we get the opportunity to repair our past Relationships and establish new Healthy ones.