Grey Book Reflection
Change involves the unknown, the great source of fear The wisdom to know the difference involves growth in the program.'"
Gray Book, p. 148 (Chapter Nine, Lines 8-12)
In active addiction our lives were controlled by fear. Even before active addiction, fear was present in our lives. Fear can take many forms; positive and negative, healthy and unhealthy.
For many of us our drug use distorted our senses. We were unable to have a relationship with reality.
Hope turned into hopelessness. Through desperation, positive fear disappeared. Self- centered fear controlled our lives.
After coming to Narcotics Anonymous we saw evidence of Hope in the members, who like us, suffered from the horrors of addiction. We saw the twinkle in their eyes and wanted what they had. Attending N.A. meetings we saw evidence of a Power Greater than ourselves at work.
Members shared with us how they came to Believe. They Cared enough about us to show us the way. Living the Spiritual Principles of Narcotics Anonymous, some of our fears begin to be replaced with Faith. Through the help of our sponsors and the Fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous, we are introduced to the God Of Our Own Understanding.
Through our belief in this Power we become less fearful of the unknown.
We ask God to Grant us the Serenity to Accept the things we cannot change, Courage to change the things we can and Wisdom to know the difference.